it all began when...
I became a mom. The experience of having my first child was exhilarating . I remember all of the emotions that flooded me the day when I had my daughter. I thought to myself, "she's perfect!" Almost 15 months later, I had that same experience with my son. In my eyes, they couldn't be more perfect!
Almost 10 years later...
I am seeing that even though I see them as perfect (in my eyes) there is no such thing as a perfect kid. They each come with amazing talents, skills, and abilities that are God-given and unique to them. They also come into this world with a sinful nature and have to be taught right from wrong.
Maybe you're a better mom than I am, but I do find myself at times tempted to judge my own flesh and blood. It's hard when I see things that don't measure up to "my" standard of "perfection"... of what I think they should be, look, and act like.
The standard for our children should be that of the two greatest commandments. They should grow up loving God and loving people. You see, their personality, the traits and characteristics that are unique to them may make us feel uncomfortable at times, but that doesn't mean that they are wrong for being "who" they are, unless what they are doing is out of disrespect and out of character.
If steward and channeled correctly, the things that make us parents feel uncomfortable about our child's personality can become a major strength in their years to come. It is up to us to teach them.
My daughter is a very loving and compassionate girl. At times, it is very difficult for me when she is compelled to do something that is out of the ordinary, like going up to hug someone who she doesn't know. She is being taught that even though that is a wonderful gift to have, she can't just walk up to complete strangers and hug them. Why? Because it is dangerous. We have had plenty of different talks on how to channel that gifting. I say this to share an example. I have other examples that involve my son, but for the purposes of keeping this short, you get the point.
God does not look at the outer appearance.
He looks at the heart. We nurture our kids with material things...food, water, clothing, toys, games, entertainment, you name it; but are we nurturing their spiritual walk with their Creator? Are we nurturing their heart? We are called to help them learn, and grow. How are we doing?
Tonight, I am finally doing what I know God has been calling me to do. That is to write to those who are suffering with many different things and desperately need to hear God's truth. With that said, I pray that my words are only what God through His Holy Spirit gives me to write and not out of my flesh (my own thoughts and ideologies). I never want to use those who I am ministering to, to be my personal sounding board. This ministry is not my own, and I want to do everything so that God gets the glory. My only intention is to pour hope into my readers.
So what is women finding Hope?
About two years ago, God got a hold of me one morning and made it very clear to me that I needed to step down from leading worship at my church. It was when I stepped down that I began this blog, but it didn't last because it was "my way" of telling others that God had called me to step down from one thing to step into another. I remember feeling like a floater in my church. I floated from children's, to infants, to sometimes playing keyboard, to helping sing on Sunday night prayer nights. It got to the point that I had to quit singing and playing just so that I could re-evaluate who I was in Christ. I ended up going back to college to finish my degree and during that process, I ministered to so many different women in my church and the community that I live in. It was in that time that I saw my true gifting. I am supposed to give hope to the women around me and if I can reach the world for Christ, that's what I want more than anything. I want to know Him and to make Him known to those who are broken, lost, confused, abused, angry, bitter, jealous, etc. I didn't go through the things I went through to live through the motions of just getting up each morning only to go to bed each night. There is world out there full of people who are in desperate need of Jesus. They are crying out, but they have no one they can trust to talk to because their trust has been violated. My prayer is for those who are seeking truth and want to be restored, as well as grow in their relationship with God. That is why this blog exists. I pray that you, my friends, are encouraged as often as I am able to write and vlog (video blog). I want to thank you for visiting. I will have a way for you to subscribe in a few days, so please look for that update, and I hope that whoever reads this will subscribe so that I can be a blessing to you.